Progress
Just came off of my workout, and I’m already a minute behind on math class. I’m pretty happy with how working out is going right now. I just finished my pushups, which totalled 24 in all. It has been hard to push myself and know I’m making progress; I get so pissed at myself for being a weenie. Plus, I tend to have a crying fit after the endorphin rush passes, which feels awfully counter-productive. It’s probably needed, though. Holding on to my optimism and feelings of power is important to me right now, and working out keeps that flowing through my veins. So I need to look at the big picture again.
This time last year I couldn’t do a SINGLE half-pushup. And in 1999, I couldn’t even lift my left hand above shoulder level because of the nice combination of cervical neuritis, frozen shoulder, and whiplash I was diagnosed with. Oh, I think somebody said fibromyalgia in there, too. I was supposed to be popping pain pills the rest of my life, take that suckers!! And in 1989, I was cutting gym class and hiding in the band trailer. I remember specifically getting demerits for riding to a football game in a car with an unlicensed 15 year old, and not being able to do the pushups and laughing at my Band Director. So, that means that effectively I’m in better shape in some ways than I was at age 13. Actually, in almost all ways, really. Probably my body fat percentage was better then, but otherwise, I can go faster and longer and lift more stuff.
I’m screaming by the end of my pushups and situps now. But I’ve quit hurting for days afterwards, and random strangers keep telling me I’ve lost weight. I haven’t lost much, maybe ten pounds. I should probably get a new scale. My new jeans I bought that were skin tight two months ago are comfy and a bit baggy. It’s tough. Change is coming in tiny increments. And no one’s gonna stop me.
Kick ass. I love challenging myself to a good workout. Sometimes the only way to clear my head is to pound on my body.
Here’s to NaBloPoMo… I look forward to reading more.
I can go faster and longer and lift more stuff.
I love this!! This is great. This is where it’s at!
Don’t stop!